That smells good

Right now i am waiting for hubby to finish making dinner for us. It is a kind of ritual for us during one of the weekend nights, he would be making us maggi for dinner. But let me tell you that it is not the plain basic microwave maggi that we know. His maggi is the gourmet kind of maggi. He would saute some onions or garlic and then put some chicken or seafood and then some veggies. I really love his gourmet maggi. Tried making it but it didn't turn out to be the same so i just leave it to the expert..:)). Oh and he would put some cili padi to give it the extra kick!

Oh my! My tummy is grumbling now. The weird thing is we had a late lunch so I thought I won't need to have dinner but somehow I feel famished right now. Today was a good day. Had breakfast then we went out to Fifth Avenue. Tini wanted to buy sime American girl outfits and build-a-bear with the giftcard she got for her birthday, also we wanted to get a new game for Wii. The fact that we can just walk to Fifth Avenue still amaze me sometimes. This is one of the famous places where tourist would make it a point to go to when they are in New York. I guess that is one of the perks of living in Manhattan but trust me it comes with a price as well. We miss home terribly and the yummy Malaysian food and work is not easy (for hubby) and as for me, let me just say that some people that I have to deal with here, I wish they would just vanish into thin air! Plus winter is indeed not something that we look forward to. Anyway, I am grateful with what we have now and want to enjoy this city that never sleep as much as possible beore our time is up.

My 500-word assignment is due next month and I haven't started yet. Well, I have a few stories that I have casually wrote but I doubt that they will be good enough for the class. It seems that I don't have a grain of imagination in my brain right now. Is it because I am trying to hard? If I just let it be, would it come flying to me?

Bon appetite!

It is time to get serious

Ok...now it is time to get serious about my writing..have enrolled in an online writing class and it has been fun apart from the fact that I am quite bersemangat before but now I am starting t get lazy again, as usual la kan..but am determine to see this through. Have to instill a new point of view..write, write and write..tak kisah la orang nak baca ke tak..the help's author, katherine sockett wrote the book without even thinking that anybody would read her book. So just write, blog and just do it...write for the fun of it, as i enjoy writing. It is just that sometimes i just don't have the idea of what to write on but will always remember this rule IF YOU LIKE TO WRITE, YOU'LL WRITE MORE, IF YOU WRITE MORE, YOUR WRITING WILL IMPROVE!

Housewife

Housewife

Housewife...how i loathe that word yet i am one..by choice?..not really...had to quit my job coz following my hubby who got posted overseas..well, i could have stayed here and him being over there, but being old school i guess, family comes first. For me, a family needs to stay together..i do know few friends who live separately from their spouse and some didn't have any problems with that, but not me..i would be feeling guilty, having the kids apart from their dad. Anyway, being a housewife really bugs me, yep, even though it has been nearly ten years. My friends who are working do envy me having leisure time, not worrying about work and being yelled at by the boss. Well, there are two sides to a coin so there are some cons that come with being a housewife. Financial dependency on your hubby is one, which was a bit difficult for me, and still is, as I was financially dependent during my single days, having scholarship during my students days and have had worked for a few years. And for me, I feel by being a housewife, I am not really using my brain..the only writing I do is the groceries list..well, actually now that my kids have gone to school, I do a bit of writing in the communication book to their teachers but that's about it. That's why now I am starting my blog,at least I can get my brain going again and also get a few things off my chest.

Some people think that it's good that the mothers stay at home and take care of their kids coz then the children's upbringing is better than being left with the maid. But being cooped up at home and having to do all the housework and not being able to do things for yourself without feeling guilty, does take a toll on you and the anger and frustration would be let out on the kids by yelling at them for no good reason. So that's a catch 22 situation there, isn't it? Patience is really important and I am still working on it.

Why do moms worry all the time?

Why do moms worry all the time?

My little girl started to go to the big school. And she is really excited about it and had no problem in adjusting..very well I must say..on the first day, she didn't even cry. and i didn't have to wait but i did, at least until snack time..worry if she wouldn't eat her snack and would go hungry. She was so excited that she had only a few spoons of cereal for breakfast. Before leaving, I think I told her a thousand times to eat her lunch, not to play on the monkey bars, drink her water, listen to the teacher..bla..bla..bla....if I were her, I would scream "I know!!!!!" . But not her, she just nodded her head like the toy with the bouncing head..whatcammacalit again?

At home, I was praying that she eats her lunch. And decided to go extra early to fetch her...waited and waited and worrying if she is okay. The bell rang and out they came from the class. She was beaming and ran towards me. I hugged her and boy, do I miss her even though it was only for six hours. Was so glad that she was okay. On the way home, she was telling me about what she did in school, her new teacher and friends. When I asked her whether she had her lunch.."Just s little bit Mommy coz I have to go and play"...and she finished her lunch in the car. She did okay for the first day..I didn't have to worry after all but guess that what moms do..ALL THE TIME....

This morning, as I was waiting for my kids to get into their classrooms, two moms came over with theirs kids. One girl, named, Natasha, is a very cheerful and sweet girl, immediately greeted my daughter, her classmate, good morning. She is always happy and smiling. And another girl, named, Zara, was complaining about something to her mom, with a unhappy face. The thing is this doesn't happen only today. Almost every morning, the scenario is the same. From my observation (yep...I kill time by analyzing people..it's fun some time)..Natasha's mom is the very cheerful type while Zara's mom is always frowning..I guess the kids pick up the mood from their mothers...or in general, their surroundings...I think it is important to have a positive vibe around your kids, they have this sixth sense if anything is wrong. Sometimes, when I had fights with my hubby, my kids would sense something and immediately they would behave extra nice because they know mommy was not in a good mood...It is not easy sometimes to be positive ALL the time but as parents, it is our responsibility...and someone told me that NEVER fight in front of the kids. So as I was boiling inside, wanting to scream at my husband, I just have to put on a smiling face in front of the kids and be patient..good practice actually to keep yourself calm. Who said being a parent is easy..it's a huge responsibility but it's also an even bigger joy!!!!!

A few more days to go..

Hubby has been away for more than two weeks now...balik Malaysia ok??? Jealous to the max when he told me that he was going back home to attend the PTK course and sit for the exam..ok, of course not jealous about the course and the exams' part..but the part that boleh balik jumpa family and eat all those glorious Malaysian food!!!!! Well, Insya Allah, he'll be coming back in a few days' time. The kids are counting the days, mommy too..plus the things he'll be bringing home. But can't kirim all the KFC and McD and what not..wouldn't last the loooonnnnggg flight to come back here.

Being a "single mom" for almost a month was not easy..I couldn't imagine how my mom did it back then when my dad passed away suddenly from a heart attack and she was left to take care of the five of us. My younger sisters were only 5 and 3 years old at that time. My mother suddenly had to take care of everything, the household, the kids, paying the bills..she was such a strong woman..she is my inspiration!!!!!

Ibu..I love you and miss you!!!!!

feeling so helpless!!!

My youngest sister just skyped me..asking me whether she can take more painkillers for her toothache. She had surgery about a week ago to take out two wisdom teeth and now the stitches are painful and her gums are not in good condition and she can't sleep. She has an exam tomorrow and it is already 2 am in the morning. Here I am thousand and thousand miles away and skyping with her and wishing that I am there to take care of her. asked her to take panadol but there was no more panadol at home. I feel so helpless that I can't do anything about it. I don't really know how she feels but I just hope that she is okay. After our mom passed away and I left, she is staying with my brother. He is going a good job taking care of her, I know that but I just wish I can be there. She is alone, no dad, no mom and she looks so helpless. I know she might be much much stronger than I think she is and even much stronger than me. But as for know, I just want to be there for her. Ya Allah, please protect my baby sister. Please give her the strength. Amin.