Today is the last day of this term. The kids have ten days of winter break, which is considered quite short for two holidays, Christmas and New Year. Anyway, we are planning to go to Myrtle Beach for three nights. It is supposed to be warmer there so am really looking forward to that but what I am dreading is the travel. It will be around 12 hours of travel, by car. I don't really like travelling by car or bus actually, I prefer train or flight. But hoping it will all be okay. The kids are super excited of going. Really have to think of things to keep them occupied for twelve hours. Ok..let's see, PSP, books, IPad, more books, IPhone and more books! Hahaha..they will be complaining of mommy bringing too many books. Well they still have to keep reading even though it is winter break.
New York city is sort of quieter already by today. Guess many people left early to beat the traffic but then if many people are doing it, the traffic will still be facing them right? Christmas morning in the city feels something like KL during raya. Quiet, peaceful, no honking which is very very rare for the city that never sleeps!
Let's talk about christmas shopping now. Some shops are open extra early like 7 or 8 in the morning! And the lines are just too long at times. I bought some presents for some of the kids' friends and school staffs and I made sure I went in the morning where the crowd was more bearable. The sales are very tempting but would have to wait till next month. This month's spending has gone way up, no thanks to the christmas bonus we gave to the staff in the building. There are 18 of them so we ended up giving quite a lot, way more than what we spent for our own raya! Well, when in Rome, do what the Romans do (within limits, of course!).
Happy holidays!
Friday, December 23, 2011
Monday, December 19, 2011
Nervous....
Tomorrow I am going to get a mammogram and an ultrasound as well...my OBGYN said even though I am not forty yet(alah..tiga tahun jer lagi..), because of family history, I would have to get the mammogram done earlier and it has to be an annual routine. Well, I am nervous because I know my two 'sisters' will be compressed and the plates are cold, pkus the cold bbbrrrr weather is not going to help at all! Imagining it is going to be like a panini press! I am not supposed to put any lotion, deodorant or talcum on that area and the armpit. Alamak, ketiak basah la jawabnyer esok, not from the heat, coz sejuk now..but because of the nervousness! Please let it be ok and not that painful. And hopefully the result will be okay, Insya Allah.
My friend's babysitter is being admitted today due to depression and she was having suicidal thoughts. My friend was at the hospital wth her and this girl was really in a bad state. The weird thing is her mom doesn't even bother to come and see her distraught daughter. Her mom lives in Boston and maybe takde duit ke aper or tak sihat nak datang but she didn't even mention of wanting to come but has no means or money to do it. She was just relying on my friend to handle everything, hello.. This is your daughter we are talking aboug..sometimes I don't understand how some people value their family. I don't know so I am trying not to judge but it is just so weird. Your daughter was thinking of killing herself and thereryou are not willing to do anything more than just texting your daughter's employer to know what was going on!! My frIend was kind enough to offer to pay for the mother's fare to come here if she wants to come but she didn't say anything about coming over to look after her flesh and blood!
Ok...time to sleep now. Hopefully I can sleep...
My friend's babysitter is being admitted today due to depression and she was having suicidal thoughts. My friend was at the hospital wth her and this girl was really in a bad state. The weird thing is her mom doesn't even bother to come and see her distraught daughter. Her mom lives in Boston and maybe takde duit ke aper or tak sihat nak datang but she didn't even mention of wanting to come but has no means or money to do it. She was just relying on my friend to handle everything, hello.. This is your daughter we are talking aboug..sometimes I don't understand how some people value their family. I don't know so I am trying not to judge but it is just so weird. Your daughter was thinking of killing herself and thereryou are not willing to do anything more than just texting your daughter's employer to know what was going on!! My frIend was kind enough to offer to pay for the mother's fare to come here if she wants to come but she didn't say anything about coming over to look after her flesh and blood!
Ok...time to sleep now. Hopefully I can sleep...
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
She is a graduate now!
Yesterday, one of my sisters graduated. I am so very proud of her, happy but sad i couldn't make it to her graduation. Brisbane is just too far from NY and the kids tengah sekolah, so sort of forced my brother yang single lagi tu to promise me that he would go. i don't want her to be alone on her graduation day. I know she said it is ok, but I insisted that at least of one of us has to be there with her. I know my mom and dad would be so very proud of her. She is damn smart! Got 6/7 for her thesis in some biotech thing, that is super smart in my eyes! so happy to see her in her robe and how I wish I could be there!
Can't wait for her to come and visit us next year, missing her and everyone so much. Last weekend, I just broke down, I missed home and my adik2 and mom and dad sssooo much. Plus the fact that I was having horrible terrible migraine yang makan ubat bertubi-tubi pun tak hilang and hubby wasn't feeling well too, so the environment wasn't helping my homesickness at all. I was being snappy, hubby was being snappy and we just kept snapping at each other, I was feeling so miserable and am sure he was too. A while later, we had a talk and I told him I was missing home and my 'bestfriend' is here..that friend can really turn my mood upside down, inside out! So later, we were ok. See, all we needed was communication.
Anyway, yesterday went to the dentist, had two fillings done and a biopsy on a growth on my gum. Hopefully it is nothing, Insya Allah. Was feeling a bit dizzy after all the anesthetic given (hope this is the right word and spelling!), so texted hubby to see if he could come and get me. He did and I was happy! Sometimes he tends to put his work first and I know sometimes he can't help it, he is not the big boss anyway but the fact that he did come and get me, just make me love him even more!
Anyway, it is a good day today and hoping for more good and great days to come.
Can't wait for her to come and visit us next year, missing her and everyone so much. Last weekend, I just broke down, I missed home and my adik2 and mom and dad sssooo much. Plus the fact that I was having horrible terrible migraine yang makan ubat bertubi-tubi pun tak hilang and hubby wasn't feeling well too, so the environment wasn't helping my homesickness at all. I was being snappy, hubby was being snappy and we just kept snapping at each other, I was feeling so miserable and am sure he was too. A while later, we had a talk and I told him I was missing home and my 'bestfriend' is here..that friend can really turn my mood upside down, inside out! So later, we were ok. See, all we needed was communication.
Anyway, yesterday went to the dentist, had two fillings done and a biopsy on a growth on my gum. Hopefully it is nothing, Insya Allah. Was feeling a bit dizzy after all the anesthetic given (hope this is the right word and spelling!), so texted hubby to see if he could come and get me. He did and I was happy! Sometimes he tends to put his work first and I know sometimes he can't help it, he is not the big boss anyway but the fact that he did come and get me, just make me love him even more!
Anyway, it is a good day today and hoping for more good and great days to come.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Missing home like crazy
Today I skyped with my three adiks... While skyping, two of them were playing the dance game thingy on kinect...it was fun watchung them play but how my heart ached to be there with them. Missing them and home so much...they just went back to KB for my cousin's wedding...miss that too..all the fun and the chaos that comes with the kenduri and of course the kenduri food and KB food. It didn't help that my brother posted a picture of the best chicken choo ever..sunhua restaurant.
Sometimes I wish we could just hop on the plane and go home but it is not that easy. The flight is way too long and it is not cheap either. Luckily my sister and brother came to visit us so terubatla sikit rindu. Insya Allah my other sister is coming next year. I am looking forward to go back for good after our three-year contract but there is one thing that is I am scared to face, going back to my mom's house. It will be weird going back there and knowing that she won't be there waiting for us, for me. I don't know whether I can handle it, the feeling of sadness and emptiness. It would take time for me to adjust to that. After my mom's passing, the time we had in KB was too short for me to absorb everything and come to terms with her death and before I knew it, we were on the flight to New York. So as much as I look forward to go home, I dread facing the empty house. I dread knowing that when I wake up in the morning, I won't be able to have our usual morning ritual of having our nasi berlauk breakfast and coffee and talk about anything and everything, which followed by the trip to the shops, the bazaars and then buy lunch, usually the yummy nasi sumatra. Then after lunch, she would have her afternoon nap, then we would have our afternoon coffee with some fried pisang goreng or my mom's yummy pancake. Then we would go to our relatives' house or just have a nice time in her garden. How i miss doing those things with Ibu and how I miss her. My heart aches and only God knows how much it is aching everyday.
Praying for strength...
Sometimes I wish we could just hop on the plane and go home but it is not that easy. The flight is way too long and it is not cheap either. Luckily my sister and brother came to visit us so terubatla sikit rindu. Insya Allah my other sister is coming next year. I am looking forward to go back for good after our three-year contract but there is one thing that is I am scared to face, going back to my mom's house. It will be weird going back there and knowing that she won't be there waiting for us, for me. I don't know whether I can handle it, the feeling of sadness and emptiness. It would take time for me to adjust to that. After my mom's passing, the time we had in KB was too short for me to absorb everything and come to terms with her death and before I knew it, we were on the flight to New York. So as much as I look forward to go home, I dread facing the empty house. I dread knowing that when I wake up in the morning, I won't be able to have our usual morning ritual of having our nasi berlauk breakfast and coffee and talk about anything and everything, which followed by the trip to the shops, the bazaars and then buy lunch, usually the yummy nasi sumatra. Then after lunch, she would have her afternoon nap, then we would have our afternoon coffee with some fried pisang goreng or my mom's yummy pancake. Then we would go to our relatives' house or just have a nice time in her garden. How i miss doing those things with Ibu and how I miss her. My heart aches and only God knows how much it is aching everyday.
Praying for strength...
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